Life is getting in the way! Not sure of what to do. So with some courage I reached to the God Father of the MKMMA system. You know, Don Corleone! I was dreading the call.
The hours ticked away since I had made the request. It seemed like an eternity was passing by. It was late and I was tired. As I was fading out the phone rang and it startled me! I looked at the caller ID and it was him! The God Father of the MKMMA!
I hesitated for a second and I picked up the phone and said “hello God Father, thanks for calling me back!” With that grumpily voice he said,”my son what is the problem? “What is the decision you can’t seem to make?” I did not know how to start to explain what my hesitation was. I told
him I wanted to stay in the family but I did not think I could carry out the hit that was required to complete the course! As I ranted on and on throwing up on him with excuse after excuse. Negative thoughts were pouring out of me like the water over Niagara Falls; he stopped me dead in my tracks!
It was like he slapped me in the face! He said with that low and stern voice, “my son when you join the family you made a commitment do what you were asked to do, correct?”. I said God Father I know, but I don’t think I can carry out the job to kill my current self. To take out by existing blue print and re-alien myself to the traditions of the family! He said I was pathetic and additied to my
own self. “Pep-tides” were controlling my negative thoughts and if I was not willing to make the hit on myself, the family would have no use for me. He said I could continue to live by my methods creating depression and self-pity. He made it very clear I was the root cause of my current set of circumstances and in our family we take responsibilities for our own actions!
I said but God Father, how can I carry out this hideous deed and take out my blueprint that I have had for so many years! He said there are many ways my son to make this happen. But you first have to believe that you can do it. It has to come from with-in you and NO where else!
Your heart will bleed and you will at first resist! But you have no other choice if you want my respect and to stay in the Family! He said he will give me the secret to compete the job! He said he was only going to tell me once!
There was a moment of silence as I pondered on what the big magical secret he was going to tell me that would get me back on track! As the words came out I could not believe what I heard!
He said with that low grumbling voice! “My son, DO THE WORK“. I was silent; my brain was filling up with hundreds of thoughts racing around! He then said Giuseppe, gabish? I said yes sir I understand! He said, OK let me go.. Good Fellows was coming on and he loves to watch that move! They took allot of stuff from me! I should knock them off but I like Ray Liotta. I always said to stay away from the drugs.
Then he hung up! I sat there silently and said Wow!! Did that just happen!!